What are suicidal feelings?
Suicidal feelings can be frightening and painful for the person who is experiencing them, as well as for their partner, family, friends and colleagues. They may include:
- believing death is your only option
- feeling helpless and worthless
- feeling that things won’t get better
- feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope
- having low self-esteem
- feelings of anger that you direct towards yourself
- feeling isolated or not understood by others
- feeling undecided about whether you want to live or die.
“I wish other people would understand that I don’t want these feelings, I didn’t ask for these feelings… and I want them to go away… but it isn’t that simple. I try and explain to my friends that it’s like there is a huge, thick, black cloud following you around… it doesn’t matter what you’re doing, how good your life appears or how ‘ok’ you seem.”
Suicide is complex. Whether someone knows why they feel suicidal or not, it can be difficult to tell others how bad they feel. As much as someone might want to die, they may also want to find another way forward. They may want others to understand how they feel, yet feel unable to talk.
“My own thoughts are driven by the desire to want this pain and suffering that I feel inside to cease. I feel my husband and children are better off without me. I feel worthless and undeserving of their love and affection. I don’t see the person they do.”