As a suicide survivor, it has been a difficult time for both my family and I in the past year. It feels surreal to me to lose such a close family member, and all the guilt and self-blame ran out all of a sudden. Thanks to my beloved one who accompanied me to go through all the funeral things, who has always been a good listener and always been there for me. It does take me a lot of time to make sense of the trauma, and having my beloved ones and friends to talk to does allow me to share some of the feelings deep down in my heart. I am truly grateful to have them to keep me company during the darkest times.